I’ve started my personal weblog here near the bottom of things. On Tuesday, April 13th, 2004, I had major surgery removing a perforated colon. My colon was compromised by a couple of decades of “inflammatory bowel disease”; my most recent diagnoses and treatment were based on it being “Crohn’s disease”.
The surgery was successful. However, I’m still dealing with the very real possibility of life-threatening infections that could follow, since my treatment for Crohn’s involved severe immuno-suppression. Thus I remain in the hospital under close observation and aggressive antibiotic therapy.
As the doctors do their thing, which is to imagine the bad and prevent it, I am trying to do my thing, which is to imagine the possible and achieve it. In this, I have the help of people who love me, people who share their friendship and support, and I have my personal faith. If I make it through all this, I have the sense that so little credit will be due to me personally as not to matter. What will matter is making the rest of my life a worthwhile thing, not just for myself, but for those who have given so much of themselves during my crisis.
One thing to be said for steroid-induced insomnia is that one has time for ideas. I now have a surfeit of ideas for things to be done, and an ever-widening gap in having time to implement them. At least one thing that I hope to keep up with will be this weblog, as a place to keep in touch with this vision I’ve had at the bottom of things and looking up.